Chelsea, Kelsie, Celia(owner of homestead) and Lucineia(local missionary and wife of boat driver) in a last picture moment before we said our final good byes.

This year, it happened again that we came unannounced. But this time it was like embracing an old friend. Having to tell her we were not coming back in 2015, she was very sad but as we explained our situation to her and she understood. She looks forward to the next team, whoever may come up, and the opportunity to hear the Word of God as she is illiterate. We gave her a Saber Storyteller from Global Recordings Network,GRN, which she loves listening to it each night.

Our boat captain, Floresval, on the front of a boat as we head up a very shallow spot on the river. He is a very cautious captain and takes every move very seriously. We appreciate his attentivness. His wife, Lucineia became a Christian about 9 yrs ago. She prayed for her husband every day and about 3 years ago, Flores became a Christian and was baptized. Since then he has had a rocky walk. His wife is small in size, but big in spirit and we ask you keep them in your prayers. They have both told us they want to help make this trip possible every year. 

This is a family that have been rejected by the community they lived in. They started all over again about 2 years ago. We have been getting to know them little by little and we see their desire and heart to follow Jesus. It has cost them a lot to go down this path. Today, we see the blessings of the Lord on them. We went to their village to dedicated a little church building they built from their own sweat and tears on their land. They invited many to come and celebrate and testify what God has done, but for one reason or another, nobody came. Our team was there to celebrate and it was a very sweet time with these brothers and sisters in Christ. We also celebrated the next day with baptisms. Everyone is now baptized and walking as new creations!!!

Thank you Jesus for this family of believers. Keep them in your protection and give them the love, grace and wisdom to reach their neighbors who have had a hard time accepting them because of you. ((all who are in the first row(red shirt in the left to the gal with baby on her hip on the right) make up this family)) See a video to see more moments with this familyHERE.

This is what we are just tapping into and ironically, what we are leaving behind. I see another 10 years of ministry and yet, God is calling us home. I can’t question God’s plan, just trust Him. I can see He is lining up others to come along side and I feel content in that. 

So many more moments and reflections, but this is just a start. 

We are heading out of internet range til November, but I try to have some more updates and thoughts and reflections to post then!

Thanks for reading…..Kelsie

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As I re-look my blog I see that I have gravely failed my hopes to continue blogging to keep everyone up to date.  So so sorry for all those who have watched and waited!
Well, today is your day to hear what we’ve been up to!!!!!

Since writing a year ago(Yikes) we have done a lot!!! I will try to give you the highlights of the past year to date!!!!

September 2013- We had my 7th and 8th grade teacher and mentor, Midge Shaw and her friend Rene come to visit us in Maribel. It was a wonderful time reconnecting and taking them out on the river and ministering in love and assistance! Midge and Rene came bearing gifts to the river people and ready to pray for any sickness! It was a great time. Exhausting for them but so amazing for us and the folks who received the blessing of having them!!!

Midge and Rene praying for our local members in Maribel

These organic, no sugar eaters enjoyed the fruits when they could!

Midge sharing at a community called Boa Esperanca or Good Hope! Clyde is translating.

Midge and Rene with Pastor Poli and Nega from Uruara!

October 2013-Nov. 2013- We traveled as a family in our truck 7000km to visit friends and church family and to see what God is doing in His Kingdom!!! We visited Marcia and Fernando in Palmas, Tocantins where they have a little church growing. They lived in Altamira and Marcia came to work for us when I was pregnant with Nate back in 2005. She and her hubby met Jesus and began to serve Him little by little. Fernando’s mother lives in Palmas and work opportunities looked better there so they moved in 2009. They wanted to serve the Lord, so the church family in Altamira encouraged them to start a small group and minister to their neighbors! Today it has turned into a church!!! Our sweet friends have turned into pastors and warriors as the mission field there is scorched from religious Christians who judge more than love. So pray for them as they continue to serve and we ask the Father to send more workers to help them there!

Marcia during worship

We were asked to participate in their church baptism!

It was so cool to see Marcia and Fernando baptizing those they had reached when we had baptized them years before! We felt like Grandparents! It was weird and rewarding feeling!

After the baptism, we realized that Marcia put on the perfect shirt! “Liberty”

We traveled to Recife where we visited Ricardo and Nadir.  We met them at a pastors retreat in Altamira for all our regional churches. They said that we were the first ones to come and actually follow through with a visit as we promised! Relationships are so important here! We enjoyed our visit with them thoroughly and enjoyed seeing the church family as well as the natural beauty around the ocean!

Ricardo and Nadir with their son, Joao(John). Ricardo made us a yummy dessert!

Their church placed right in the middle of the neighborhood. “Christian Community”

Family picture in Recife

Beach day with church friends

Night on the town with friends in Orlinda(old town near Recife)

We journeyed farther North up the coast to Joao Pessoa(John Person, a place on the coast) and met up with friends that only God could arrange. Chelsea (Newton) Martins and her new hubby, Andre’ were ministry leaders/actors with Jeova’ Nissi and were on tour in the Northeast of Brazil!!!  It was a  divine appointment to hook up with them and meet Andre for the first time. Chels worked with Xingu Mission as a single missionary back in 2010-2012. God was already working out a fabulous plan for them to come and work with us in Maribel(but we had no idea it was really gonna happen)!!!!

Chelsea before the show “Tortured for Christ” with Jeova Nissi Theatrical Company

Chelsea’s monologue

Andre,  in an intense scene after guards have cut off his tongue for preaching the gospel and he still choses to write on a piece of paper “Jesus Loves YOU”

Late dinner with the theatrical group, great fun!

We traveled to Natal, the most gorgeous place I’ve been in Brazil so far!!!! Steve and Sonia Armour are veteran missionaries and our friends that God has blessed us with. They had us for 10 days as I got sick and couldn’t travel until I was healed up. They have 2 daughters that married and are living on a ranch all together. It was the perfect set up for any close nit family. It reminded us of our family back home and made us miss them, but appreciating the beauty of serving the Lord together!
You can check out their ministry at these site: Light in Action

Natal, Brazil Natal means Christmas in Portuguese and they chose the 3 wise men to be main attraction year round!

Breakfast on the veranda with Steve and Sonia’s family!

Joel and Arlen with Light n Action in the studio as we got a field trip of their work in off set productions! Check them out…it IS AMAZING!!!

The whole clan at the Armours Ranch in Natal!

Sonia and us on a tour of the beaches at night!

Field trip on the train for $.25 a person!!!!

December 2013- We pulled off an amazing early Christmas surprise for Makenna and Maddy by keeping a secret that their cousins, Carissa and Isabella were coming to visit!!!! Our brother in law, Matt Heverly was able to come down for 10 days or so and bring is girls with him. It was a fast trip, but such a wonderful time. We took them to Maribel with us and did a 2 day river trip with them. It was a wonderful Christmas gift and we’ll never forget it!!!

First group picture after arriving in the airport!

Carissa and Makenna ages 13

Isabella and Maddy ages 11

Best friends!

Family picture before leaving

Jan 2014- Clyde heard from the Lord while working on the church “Return to your first love”.
He understood it to mean in ministry. His first ministry was working with the homeless in Grants Pass. He felt the Lord saying that our time was closing in Maribel and we were to return to Grants Pass for a undefined time to work with the down and out. I’ll explain more later in a future post.
But in January we realized we were going to be returning home and leaving the mission and Maribel.
We chatted with leadership about our plans and they were sad and supportive at the same time.

March 2014- Clyde had hurt his knee after helping carry some heavy lumber out from the jungle. The knee never got better, just continued to hurt. We traveled to Altamira to check it out and stayed nearly 2+ months as he had to have surgery and therapy. We were able to meet with many folks, be apart of ministry in Altamira a bit and attend the city churches. It was a great and challenging time, but God used it for His purposes. Maribel was very difficult to get to and we were saved the struggles of living out there during the same time!

A panoramic shot of Clyde waking up from surgery in his private hospital room

Brushing his teeth before bed!

Next day and already doing physical therapy on his knee

Learning to rest!

Church service is always a blessing!

Lunch with our Indian friends from 3 tribes! Each of them are following Jesus and prayed in their native tongue  giving thanks for our meal and time together!

Special celebration for a couple that just got married! Small reception at their home!

May 2014- Big Wedding with missionary Christopher Meyer and his Brazilian Bride, Denise Campos, who is the main church, pastor’s daughter. We were asked to be in their wedding and it was a wonderful time. We were still in Altamira and left for Maribel shortly after.

Rehearsal dinner and special picture with Christopher and Denise

Gorgeous couple after the ceremony

YEAH!

June 2014- We got home mid May and Clyde was able to work on a few projects and also get the church ready for Chelsea and Andre’, who we met on our trip to the Northeast back in October, as they were moving to Maribel and serve for 6 months!!!! We were excited to have a little spot upstairs of the church for them to live. It’s a perfect little space for this sweet couple.

Chelsea shared that they felt working with Jeova Nissi was really hard on them as a couple. They were feeling a release and wanted to come and serve us in any way. Chelsea is helping me with schooling the kids and it has really been a huge weight off my shoulders and a complete blessings to co-teach with her as she graduated a homeschool student!!! God knows all the details and cares about them!!!
Andre’ is learning a lot about being a missionary in the rough and rugged and also some trade stuff as he assists Clyde with projects.
They both have been a huge blessing in ministry as they are able to put together very impactful skits to communicate the gospel.  So they moved to Maribel in June!!!

Andre and Chelsea Martins

Andre has taken up fishing and provided many a good meal at our table plus he is working alongside Clyde and learning a lot about construction and life in Maribel

Chelsea spends mornings with us Mon-Fri teaching mainly the older girls. She has really been an answer to prayer!!!

July 2014- Another wedding!!! Lica and Geidson are a sweet couple that we have known for a few years and they asked if Nate and Hannah could be in their wedding!

Geidson and Lica are an awesome couple who have a mighty future and calling!! Pray for Lica as just 18 days into their marriage she was in a  motorcycle accident. She fractured her pelvis and it has been a long healing process for her.

Nate was the ring bearer with a twist! Geidson’s family owns a bicycle shop and Geidson loves to ride bikes, so it was only appropriate for them to incorporate bikes into their theme! Nate rode up the aisle bearing the rings! Too cute!

Hannah carried a sign that said “Here comes the Bride” She walked in just before Lica! Adorable!

Nate making his way up the aisle, everyone was enamored by him!

Returning to Maribel we had the annual Festival planned and we were so blessed when other brothers and sisters in Christ came out from Altamira to help us! It was a dream realized. Here is another video to see what happened!!! Festival Video

August 2014- We have tried to make it a priority to do a missions trip up river every year. Actually our goal was every 6 months, but the trip in the winter never happened so we have been able to do it annually. We had a big team this year with 15 and then another member joined up later and a few left because they couldn’t stay for the entire 3 week trip. We inaugurated a new church, did 12 services, baptized new believers and built more relationships as well as distributed reading glasses, match box cars to the boys, homemade bows to the girls and clothes to the men and women. It was a blessed time and we thank the Lord for protecting us on the big rapids and our health. It was hard to tell everyone we were not coming back next year, but that another team will be coming. They showed much support to allow the next years team to come and minister again!

New Creation!!!

Getting ready for a outdoor worship service!

Chelsea and Sergio in a skit about finding the Father and being loaded down by failures and wrong decisions!

Sweet Indian baby getting a bath!

Introducing the SABER bible story teller to a community that is hungry for the truth in the Bible! Global Recordings Network

Lots of fish BBQ

Fish anyone? Peacock bass, Dog fish and Piranha

Makenna and Maddy and a few others from our team danced with an Indian tribe

Hannah loves babies in every shape and size!

Clyde prepares for morning devotions with our team on the trip.

Nate turned 9 on the river! He was given a chicken by one of the villagers on the river! He chose to have it for lunch the next day!

September 2014- NOW, we are in Altamira blogging and letting you know that we have 4 more months left to our time here in Brazil. It’s feeling very close and we have a bit more to do to prepare the group in Maribel as well as select our few favorite things over the past 10 yrs to take back with us.
We have many emotions going on at this time. But we know that God works all things to the good of those who love Him and are CALLED according to His purposes!
We are excited to go home and talk in our own language and minister and we are looking forward to how God will bring this ministry into fruition!

This picture is kind of symbolic of us holding on to ministry here in Brazil for just a few more months! Then we’ll have to let go and watch them from afar and trust the Lord to care for them and lead them.

We appreciate your prayers for this transition!
 Blessings, Kelsie and Clyde

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 Hello Supporters and Friends!

I hope all is well for you! I have finally moved to Portel! It took about a week to get from Altamira to having my stuff moved in and organized, but now I am starting to settle in. I am very excited to get started with the school project, as well as become familiar with my new city.
One of the things that has been amazing is the house I was able to rent. It’s not too expensive, but it’s quite large and beautiful. It has 3 bedrooms, bathroom and living room, as well as a veranda and backyard. Because there is so much space, I was able to help out Richie’s family by storing some of their things from their old house in Porto de Moz. Manoela will be staying in the other bedroom when she comes. I need to make a few upgrades to the house, like putting screens on the windows to keep out the mosquitoes, but nothing major. It is also very close to the beach. Another great thing about Portel is that the city is small enough that I can ride a bike to get around. It is very charming!

The Front Veranda

 The team here has been working away to finish off the building that will be used for our church and school. They have come a long way, but still need to install a roof. Once the roof is on, they plan to finish at least one of the rooms for now. They currently need an additional $5000 for the roof and the first room. If you are interested in donating to help complete this project, please go to this link http://www.xingu.org/15e1_portel_donation.html. Or you can contact me directly at allison.rupert@xingu.org.

The Building at its current progress

 One of the projects that Richie and his team has already started here is the Water Filter Project. Basically, they build cement water filters, and then take them out to the river communities and give them away. The filters are effective and easy to maintain, and of course, help provide clean water to those who use the river water for everything. One of the sponsors for the project asked for a picture, so we sent them this.

Some of the kids from our church

I want to thank all of you who have been so faithful in helping me get to this next step in the journey. I have such high hopes for what can be accomplished in this precious town. I ask that you please continue to pray for me for God’s protection and direction. I feel extremely blessed to be working for the King, and you should, too! I want to also bless all of you and your families. I pray that God continues to meet you daily, and continues to show you his undying and eternal love. He is truly our friend forever. There is a verse in Hebrews that has been on my heart lately, and I want to share it with you.  
 ^“For this reason he had to be made like them, fully human in every way, in order that he might become a merciful and faithful high priest in service to God, and that he might make atonement for the sins of the people.  Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted.” Hebrews 2:17-18

What a merciful and gentle God we have, one who sacrificed so much to be with us and fight for us. He is truly worthy of everything we have to offer him. 

God bless you all, 
Take Care, 

Allison

Please take a look at the link for more pictures. 

First Week in Portel

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What an honor it was to visit my family while in Canada for a very important Conference for Living Waters. I was not planning on coming home this summer, even for a few weeks, but once I realized that I was to go to the Living Waters Conference, I took the opportunity to see family and a few friends.

The Living Waters Conference for me was incredibly personal and powerful. The very first day and session, God used to begin a deep work of emotional healing in me. It is hard to put into words what He all did, but over these past 2 months here I have noticed a huge and notable ( daily) change in my thinking, attitude, security, choices,…. everything. I am very thankful!!!

We had the privilege of visiting with our parents.
It was awesome to see them all not just because we love and miss them but because we don’t know how many more years God will give them on earth. My father passed away 10 years ago and my mother is now 89, and Cyndi’s father and mother are 84.

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Something microscopic seems to have taken up residence in my GI tract.  Sorry, that’s the cleanest way I can put that.  I   have been feeling unwell on and off and then it took a turn a few days ago.  I was advised to take some ‘samples’ in to a local lab to see if we can get to the bottom of it…pun intended.

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A cobblestone street in downtown Belem before the morning traffic starts

                He was drunk.  Not just a little drunk.  He was so drunk that he had difficulty walking straight.  He was mostly incoherent.  And he picked our church.  He wandered in off the street into our church service.  And he had lost his shoes somewhere in his unguided wandering. 

                Some people when they get drunk get quiet and pensive.  This guy was the exact opposite.  He was talkative and, even more concerning, he was grabbing a hold of everyone that he passed by – men, women, and children.  He was making quite a scene in the back of the church. 

                I walked from my seat to the back of the church and suggested we step outside so we could talk.  I lead him to the door as we dialogued about his lack of footwear.  It was a concern but, unfortunately, there is nowhere in our town to buy anything like that at 9pm. 

                I put my arm around his shoulders to help guide him as I walked alongside of him.  His shirt was soaking wet and sticky.  It was an unpleasant sensation to say the least.  As we walked, I shared with him about the love of Jesus and how there is so much for us in life. 

                It was a simple 20 minutes.  We walked together until we encountered a taxi to take him home.  I paid for the taxi which took him to an unfamiliar address.  Along the way, I had also bought him some food from a street vendor. 

                In the back of my mind, I realized that whether he remembered it or not, others would.  The people we passed on the street, the food vendor, the taxi driver – how do we treat those that undeserving?  How do we treat those that are unlikable?  Where is our heart when we are confronted with a difficult moment?  Even more important than others, how I respond in such situations shapes my soul, it forms who I am.  I want to be a little more like our Jesus who touched prostitutes, accepted people unclean with illnesses, reached out destitute beggars, and extended his Kingdom to the demonized.  And sometimes others feel God through the hand of His children.  

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Hello to the Best Supporters!

Just a few days ago marked my official first 2 years in Brazil! What a journey it has been. You all have been there with me through the whole thing, and you are still here as God’s calling and purpose for my life continues to be revealed each day. I am very proud that I have made it this far and that there is still much ahead. I am looking forward to the future.
Last month, I had the privilege of spending a few weeks with a team from VCDC as they visited the river communities around Portel. We had a great time getting to know one another and hanging out on the boat. Everyday, we would stop in a new community and spend the day there. There were always lots of kids around, and the team painted their faces and gave them balloons and candy. Some of the brave men from the team also played soccer with the locals, which I found very impressive. Brazilians often play soccer in their bare feet on rocky, grass fields. The Americans did their best to keep up, but nevertheless, many found themselves with a lot of aches and pains after! At night, after they had recovered, we would have a service for the people with worship, prayer, and testimonies from the team members. All of the communities we visited consist of relationships that are fairly new, so the team helped us greatly to make a good impression on them. I’m sure we will be invited back in the future.

I am still here in Altamira, and plan on officially leaving on September 8th. I will meet Richie on his boat in a city called Porto de Moz, and from there, we will go together to Portel. While I was visiting Portel with the team, I was able to rent a house. I am very excited about this house because it is large with a yard, not too hot, and close to the beach! It is also not very expensive, and I feel like it is a blessing from God and exactly what I wanted. I will show you pictures when I get there.
In the meantime, we have had some new missionaries arrive at the base, and I have been helping them get settled in. They will both be teaching at CDR, so I have been training them on how the school functions as well as their responsibilities there.
As you can imagine, I am anxious to start the next phase of this journey. Each time I visit Portel, I become more aware of the needs there and how I can be apart of meeting them. I thank you all for your prayers. I desire to be useful to the Kingdom of God in big ways and small. Please pray that everyday, that becomes more of a reality.
And I thank you all for your faithful financial support. It is a privilege to take what you have given me and use it to help bless others. God bless you all.

Love, Allison

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    One of the houses along the river          

      The last couple of weeks were spent with a team visiting from Cleveland, Ohio.  What a great time and what a great group of people.  I had a wonderful time together with them and it was a pleasure getting to know them.  They came to do a ministry trip throughout the region.  I had the pleasure of hosting them during the portion of their trip that took them along the river.

                We visited two small communities along the river.  Both of them are characterized by a simple lifestyle – No electricity, no running water, and a basic sustenance lifestyle.  The people were overjoyed with our visit.  They were extremely grateful for the contact and ministry that the team did.  One thing that really connected well between the team and the people was the transparent sharing of pain and difficulties in their lives.  There were no barriers as people communicated their hurts and God moved in their lives. 

One thing that always stands out as I visit along the river is that so many of these people are isolated by their poverty.  They often are restricted to either traveling by foot or by dugout canoe.  It seems that living is a dicey proposition and going without and is a normal part of their reality.  It becomes too easy to romanticize the lifestyle in the jungle along the river, considering it idyllic, whereas the norm is a constant struggle to keep the family feed and clothed. 

                These are a people that are on the margins of society.  They receive substandard education, health care, and are general disconsidered in most every way.  The beautiful thing is that these are a people that Jesus died for, the ones that he considered the most precious.  Their worth is not in physical appearance, financial wealth or intellectual ability.  Their worth is in the fact that they each have a soul that Christ died for on the cross.  It is in our need that we recognize our Savior and in the darkness that His light shines brighter. 

Thanks for your prayers.  

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Children learn to handle the dugout canoes from their earliest years

There are a lot of horrible things going on in the world right now, wars and disease, things that can make us feel like the world is falling apart and that we have no power to change it.  But I say we can change it, and it’s simple.

Love people.

If we expanded the circle of people we love and would do anything for to include more than the people in our immediate family, if we truly loved our neighbours as ourselves, I think the world would be a different place.  Instead of focusing our energy, time and Facebook posts on things we can’t change, I challenge us all to have the courage to change the things we do have the power to change, the things that are right in front of us.

My friend Rob Hall who died in Zambia while helping people there learn how to use a small piece of land to grow their own food used to say ‘lean into the things in front of you, and there you’ll find the Kingdom of God’.

The Kingdom of God IS love.

There’s a reason why the second greatest commandment in the Bible is to love your neighbour as yourself…we have the potential to change the world, we just need to tap into it.

It’s a well known fact that the power of love is the greatest force known to man and each and every one of us has it living inside of us.

So, I challenge you, in the days and weeks to come.  Open your eyes to the things around you, look for ways to love your neighbours, and by neighbours I mean anyone in front of you.  Maybe the elderly lady at the grocery store needs help with her bags.  The single Mom who lives next door, offer to babysit (for free) so she can have a much needed night off.  There is more than enough need and more than enough love we just have to be willing to see and do.

I think you’ll be blown away how simple acts of kindness to others will not only shine a light in their lives but in yours too.
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Normally, I shop for our food alone.  Just little old me, silently and swiftly moving (now that I know what to buy) around the grocery store and as far as anyone is concerned I’m just one of those ‘branquinhos’ or light skinned Brazilians.  I am incognito as long as no one asks me to speak.

Unless of course, my kids come with me. For those of you who know my children, they are anything but quiet.

They blow my cover every time.

As we stand at a display of school workbooks Faith is chattering away at the speed of light and I look up to see not one but five staff members hovering around the table we are near, all of them staring.  They gawk actually, mouths agape but they are quick to smile when I make eye contact and smile at them.  But it doesn’t stop their eyes being fixed on the rapidly moving mouths of my children.

We get to the cash register and I speak Portuguese to the woman at the cash, but again my kids are there, making a game with the packages.  A new woman comes over to pack our groceries and Faith says, or more likely shouts, something in English and the lady packaging our groceries freezes, empty bag in one hand, package of sugar in the other.  She’s looking at my daughter like she just arrived off of a space ship.

I laugh and explain that we are Canadian and that they are learning Portuguese.  Everyone smiles, but the staring continues.

It’s a good thing it doesn’t bother us because it happens all the time, whenever we leave the house as a family, actually.

Yesterday, three girls in the river thought we were from India.  I had a good laugh at that one.

Learning a new language is one of the hardest things I’ve experienced in  my forty-two years.  When you’ve reached this ripe age, you’ve been through the trials of childhood, the self-discovery of your teens and twenties, acceptance of who you are in your thirties and arrived in a place where you feel like you know who you are and what you stand for.

Take away your ability to speak and suddenly you feel like that person you’ve come to know is trapped in a plexiglass box.  People can see you but they can’t hear you.  Your thoughts, opinions and stories all fall silent. You long to connect with other human beings at a deeper level but when all you can say is ‘how are you’ and ‘it’s hot’ you’re always skimming along the surface.

For an extrovert, this is a special kind of torture.

For the past three months our family has been the only English speaking family on the base here in Marabá, which has pushed us, immersed us and challenged us, but more than that it has HELPED us.

A couple of weeks ago as the sun was setting, I sat with Monica, the church’s pastor.  We watched our kids paint, first on paper and then their whole bodies grunting like apes and running around the soccer field.  We swapped stories, laughed, talked about our families and things we’d learned about life in the past.

After the sun had set and our kids were scrubbing their skin pink to get the paint off,  I felt like the ‘real me’ was out and able to tell stories, make jokes and share my heart with another person.

It was like coming up from a deep dive and taking a big breath.

I’m far, far, FAR from fluent in this new language but I am finally feeling more and more like getting there is not impossible.

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